-The electric snap of this cerebral trap, the one that keeps jolting me back to reality. This malady, a portion of my being that is seeing only the horse blinders you placed on my head—my eyes sideways for you. Nothing in front of me. Nothing behind me. This life compartmentalized and I am demoralized thinking of what is going on off to the sides. Out of sight but not out of mind. I want to bind with the sticky sweet essence of all your memory but I am sliding on this slippery plane back down into nothingness.